| Friday, July 21st, 2006 |
| 2:00 pm |
Happy afternoon!
I sooo canceled myspace again:) but I had to obsess over some type of computer activity sooo i remembered this little old livejournal..HA! this is pretty sad..I feel like going out to a concert or any live music right now cause it is really HOT outside and it would be a lovely night for drinks and music:) just a thought. Yesterday I went downtown for my midterm (I think i did alright) got home that night and discovered that there was a shooting on campus whilst i filled in the bubbles on my multiple choice 200 level course..I saw the cop car blocking off a street when i came out but didn't put two and two together until i got home and watched the news later that night. Yet another near death experience! nooo just kidding;)does anyone even use livejournal anymore?? curious. Current Mood:  chipper |
| Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006 |
| 10:36 pm |
I'm sooooooooooo bored. and grumpy and tired . the end. |
| Tuesday, March 7th, 2006 |
| 11:20 am |
This day and the next
Since registration has already started at PSU I'm a little nervous that I won't be registering until the 23rd which is the day of my orientation..which they are making me attend..I just want to register but whatever. I went to my uncle freds surprise 50th birthday party on saturday night, that was nice but crowded and so jake and i didn't stay long. The real reason for going was this really thick guilt trip that my grandpa laid on me. Maybe he has a point, I should see family more. I went for a drive to PSU yesterday just to take a look and see if I would ever want to drive to school(not likely). I noticed that the new coffee people they put in there would be the perfect place to work..so I'm going to ask about transfering, it would make things much easier. Then all I would have to do is find a room for rent a little closer to downtown. I feel like everything is moving in slow motion, I'm impatient..I really want this shit to come together already. argh! I mean once i start class in spring how will i find the time to find a car? an apartment?..just want to take care of this sooner than later. In other news..I found this really great chap stick..YESSSS! Current Mood:  lazy |
| Sunday, February 26th, 2006 |
| 9:40 pm |
Not a lot is going on for me right now. uh...mostly almosts and thinking about doings. I'm trying to go to PSU in the spring, and I'm trying to buy a kia sportage...I'm trying to keep my sanity at work and I'm trying to meet new people. I'm thinking about a serving job, thinking about acting again and I'm thinking about kickboxing. Things I do: work,math,drink,jog,listen to music. looking forward to spring. |
| Wednesday, November 23rd, 2005 |
| 9:45 pm |
oh crap
I called the assistant manager a 'gasbag in every sense of the word' straight to his face tonight. Of course he basically forced it out of me. I think he called me a asswipe or asscrack or something like that (all in play). Then he said I had to think of a comeback so i did. but how stupid..i hate work. it's not fun it's annoying. I get that I need to stick up for myself more often from a lot of people I know..almost everyone...if not everyone...yeah, actually everyone I know has told me this at one point or another. Anyways I would much rather create jokes in my head and laugh about how stupid and retarded work situations are. And if i really hate a job,manager,person etc. I just quit,avoid, leave it alone. honestly i feel no attatchment to any minimum wage job and so if i want to be passive aggressive and really nice at work until i just stop wanting to go then i will. It's simply not wise to say what's on your mind all the time. but if you ask me to insult you and you happen to be a complete gasbag then i will tell you so. Work is such a waste of mental energy. Wish List: Hot date-Hot Chocolate-strolling the city diamond necklace stack of old christmas movies tickets to Paris P.S I think I'm catching a cold |
| Monday, November 21st, 2005 |
| 7:58 pm |
I got rid of myspace about a week ago and so far two people noticed...i think i had 28 "friends" and 2 of them asked me what happened to that little picture of me on their screen. it just wasn't fun. in all honesty i would rather exchange phone numbers and talk to my friends on the phone to get my updates and such. i never felt any real interaction with the myspace thing. sure it's something to do..but there are other things to do with my time. Something fun or interesting. i did enjoy checking in with some friends to see what they wrote..but like i said i would rather talk to them. and if i don't get to talk to them often then we would have that much catching up to do. there would be something to talk about. no one really acts like themselves or can come across as who they really are on that thing in my opinion. You might be able to say the same about livejournal but...never mind that. I took a Career test called the Motivational Appraisal of Personal Potential or MAPP here's my top ten careers: 1. Decorating and Art Work: design, arrange, consult 2. Modeling: artistic display; fashions, apparel 3. Art Work: creative expression, ideas; paint, draw 4. Musical, Creative: compose, arrange, improvise 5. Instructive, Fine Arts: drama, art, music 6. Creative Entertainment: imagination; spontaneous 7. guidance, Counseling: personal, work, school, spiritual 8. Promotion/publicity: advertise, market, promote 9. Dramatics: interpret, portray roles 10. Interview/Inform: gather, dispense information My "plan" so far is to attend psu and work for a degree in advertising managment, however I don't know how much i would enjoy this because It's so much about business, entirely practical in all aspects. More about acounting, statistics, economics..all things I..well things i never wanted to do. i would love to pitch ideas and get people excited about projects. keeping my options open helps some, but right now i can't see anything else for me. Which is bad. So my outside options would be to: run away to hollywood and break into showbiz staying here and starting a zeen audition for local film projects in portland maybe i could apply to NYU just for laughs i could learn french bumming around paris for a year open a small bakery live in australia for 3 months go to maine and meet the side of my family i never knew open to suggestions |
| Saturday, November 19th, 2005 |
| 1:17 pm |
Reasons for the fall
letting in the breath rids the ringing in my head gives the solumn peace I wish so much lost so many risks that didn't pay off weighing the cost of time realizing my own mortality When the boys take off their mask pour the liquir in my glass Current Mood:  crushed |
| Thursday, July 21st, 2005 |
| 11:55 am |
Okay here's my little update: decided on Psu Advertising Managment program. Anyways I havn't written in here for half a year sooo i don't know who reads it but o well. Yesterday Zac me and jake tried to change the radiator fluid in my car all on our own. It proved to be far more difficult than we had anticipated and all we really managed to do in the end was drain a good portion of radiator fluid out but only enough to make the problem worse without being able to figure out how to get the new radiator fluid to go in. Courtney witnessed as a good amount simply went on the engine rather than inside where I'm certain it would prove to be more useful. We put more oil in without a problem..we originally wanted to do an oil change but didn't even attempt that one. I work today. the stip club isn't a bad place, I make good money...no I'm kidding..still a barista with crappy pay. I hope trish gives me a raise soon. I mentioned it to her, but i know she forgot. |
| Wednesday, January 12th, 2005 |
| 11:28 am |
Havn't been here in a few days..sounds like everyone is doing pretty good:) not much new with me except I got my fist credit card yestderday and am pondering the possiblities and fearing my possible lack of control. I called to activate this thing and the lady on the other line was acting like my best friend..i mean she was extremely nice and encouraging about using the card and trying to get me all excited cause it was my first card..it was evil ... i should stop writing and go jog then go to anthro and then go to work..i just want to say that mount hood is the epitomy of frustration because the majority of the classes are way too easy and I want to get out of there soooo bad. but where to go..i'm considering osu, psu or southern. psu has a marketing program that sounds good..southern has a human resources program...and osu is osu. Current Mood:  curious |
| Saturday, December 11th, 2004 |
| 12:31 pm |
This is my december 11th
"take a deep breath relax and push it on out somebody please explain to them what it be about they can't sleep yea too many regrets gotta run around in circles for the respect they need the gossip but where's the logic forces in the box garauntee a better product so here i sit now and watch em trip out trying to pick a finger to put upon what it's about but if there was a point you would still avoid you should have tought the boys and girls to take apart their toys i stayed upset with all the puppets stuck my urge in the drama cause they love it they take in all the pain and then complain why would you chase away the sun if you don't want the rain i never asked for the world just a portion tryin to make a good soldier outta daddy's little orphan but managment called down demanded that we turn the sound down and with that i suggest we start the countdown and work your way backwards till all the bastards collapse and choke on their last words and ill be back when it's happy hour so just pour me another and ignore me my brother breath in breath out the sign says keep out somebody pleas fill up my cup before i freak out" (Atmosphere) "All I ever wanted was to pick apart the day put the pieces back together my way" (Aesop Rock) I write all this cause I'm bored and I kind like to see how fast I can type while the song plays..weird i know anyways I'm excited cause I'm almost finished with this term. I went by coffee people and I think I'm getting hooked up with a job there. why do i still write in this thing? i usually just stare at the screen for long periods of time thinking about how nothing has really changed and how I'm trying to write about how things are relatively the same..not very interesting..let me try to think of an interesting story..well this autistic guy, Todd , who comes into sunny hans is aparently going to marry a mail order russian bride. Zac told me this cause I wasn't there to see for myself but i thought that was pretty funny..of course you would have to know todd in order to fully understand why that is so amusing. now i'd like to talk about zac's crappy music..not all of it is crappy but last night while we were driving he put a song on that replaced the words "amadaeous amadaeous" with "I'm a playa I'm a playa" if that gives you any sense of what I'm talking about. Sometimes i think my head will explode and I imagine bailing out of the car. the end;) |
| Saturday, November 27th, 2004 |
| 9:38 pm |
I got fired for being late all the time at sunny hans. I guess I was late but this sucks because they asked me to leave the olive garden and then they cut my hours rather than giving me more...and then they started the vibe..and i was always a couple minutes late cause i felt like it was a stupid job and no one will just be straight with me there. and then i thought they fired me because i was late these last two days but nooo it turns out they were going to fire me much earlier but they were waiting because that bitch crack whore manager didn't want to cover my shift. they totally screwed me over but i can't say i didnt see it coming. I was really pissed and went for a long drive to cool off a bit..i drove and drove and drove till my tank was half empty cause i was just frustrated as hell. zac came over and brought me a rose cause he felt bad and he's being really sweet and that's all i guess. i feel alright now but now i have to find a job..i guess. I got my olcc license today cause i want a serving job but who knows. k later. |
| Friday, November 26th, 2004 |
| 12:00 pm |
Your Porn Star Name is: Spanky Bottoms
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I hope everyone had a happy thanks giving! Current Mood:  full |
| Saturday, November 20th, 2004 |
| 10:07 am |
New e-mail is: eurikamerleau@hotmail.com :
I've finally been having good luck in my photography class. I've been printing some double exposures that turned out really well so that made me feel much better and less like i was going to fail the class. My back is feeling a lot better now and stuff...a couple people made comments that they think im brave for even getting in the car with zac because he's a really bad driver and "that's what seatbelts were invented for" but since the accident I've been doing most of the driving since his car is in the shop and he doesn't want to risk hurting his dad's car. I really want to go snowboarding soon because it's starting to get really boring around here. Especially this weekend because ashley went to california to visit her boyfriend Aldo...and yes I have already mentioned the similarity between Aldo and Waldo and asked "where's Aldo?"..he gets that a lot but i found it amusing. Anyways it's nice not working at the olive garden anymore, i don't think i'll go back. That's pretty much all that's been going on..who will buy me beer? Current Mood:  pleased |
| Tuesday, November 16th, 2004 |
| 2:34 pm |
Got in a car accident last night with Zac. There was oil or something on the road and we spun out while trying to get on I84. Ran into the cement gaurd rail at about 35mph. we both sprained our backs but are fine other than that. It really really sucked and was scary. I'm sad lately for some reason that i can't quite figure out. I mean i can't say it's because of anything or anyone, I've just been sad. At this point I havn't slept yet so i should maybe try that. can i take 800mg of ibuprofen and 10mg of cyclobenzaprine together? i took the ibuprofen about 3 1/2 hr ago so i'll just wait 2 1/2 more hr just in case. maybe i don't really need to take the muscle relaxer, they told me it would make me drool. Current Mood:  gloomy |
| Sunday, November 7th, 2004 |
| 9:41 pm |
junkie cosmonaut
lalala not doing my homework bli blah bluh...it's just a simple essay question on the differences between apes and hominids but i don't wanna write it. Soooo instead I'm going to sit here, listen to music and write about not wanting to write...of course if i were to just write the essay then i would be done with it, and then i would be free to do whatever i wanted without thinking about homework. (sigh) *overting gaze down and to the right*...........damnit. |
| Friday, November 5th, 2004 |
| 7:55 am |
I finally quit the olive garden! so my last day is on the 14th:) so now i have time to look for another job to replace sunny hans if i want. feeling good lately but needing to get in touch with sarah about that art project we're trying to get started. I have a lot to learn and some work to do but it's fun. My mom was freaking the fuck out the night of the presidential elections..and the worst part was that i was sick with the flu so there i was listening to her for almost three hours because if i got up at all i would have gotten sick. she was like...not all the votes are counted!!! not all the votes are counted!!! yikes. well that's it for now. |
| Thursday, October 28th, 2004 |
| 11:24 am |
Where is my mind? way out in the water sea of swimmin~~~~~~
These days are bluring together and i feel as though i might be getting stupider as I become more and more sleep deprived. However I'm doing fine dispite this. I know that i have to quite one job or the other but i'm just not sure which one. I'm very confused about that. I figure I'll most likely stay in this state of undecisiveness for a while longer. Anyways I bought my halloween costume the other day, I'm going as snow white. I'm sposed to go to work in my costume tomorrow and then I'm going to a huge party at the meow meow club saturday night after work with sarah and some of her friends:) Zac and I hang out everyday. i've never seen so much of one person before. i guess it's nice but i think i should be careful not to ditch my other friends which i've caught myself doing a little bit lately. feel bad about that. Current Mood:  artistic |
| Wednesday, October 20th, 2004 |
| 11:27 am |
I've come up with a really great idea, basically I think it will be cool to make a short animation using various ideas and art work from all who would like to be a part of the project. I've already talked to sarah handyside about it and she thinks it's a cool idea. The basic theme would be sorrow is a muse for beauty. I want this to showcase everyones talents basically..I havn't talked to everyone yet but I'm excited. i mean sorrow is a muse for a lot of things...comedy too. I need to figure out the actual process of animation more but that's no problem. of course I want people with musical talent to be envolved too:) I just have a reallly good feeling about it all. Aside from that I've been insanly busy with school and work and my car problems...yeah breaks stopped working while i was driving home. They just went all the way down! i was freaked thinking this isn't really happening but it was so i pulled the e break....mom fixed it for me. I feel bad cause it was expensive and she already pays for my car insurance.Anyways- Zac and I hang out a lot...i hate to say it but we're sortof a thing now which surprises me but what can i say..i mean he can get annoying but i think he's sweet. - he has awful taste in music but ..oh well. I have an anthropology test today and i missed the review cause of my breaks but it shouldn't be too bad. i should probly go study for that...sigh...I feel like i've been too busy and not sleeping enough...oh well ... on the other hand i don't want to be an "oh well" person. Think I'll quit olive garden and just work one job. im such a procrastinator..later Current Mood: artistic |
| Monday, October 18th, 2004 |
| 12:23 am |
chillin like a villian with this freaky creepy guy zac and gwyn...gwyn won't sign up on livejournal...she's so weird but not as weird as zac |
| Friday, October 1st, 2004 |
| 1:03 pm |
the mhcc is going well so far..pressman(anthropology) is an awesome teacher and my other classes are alright. photography will be cool once i get my camera back from the repair shop. I'm just now recovering from a killer headache that lasted for two days. I think because i was dehydrated and i stopped drinking coffee..anyways it was bad and i was supposed to go to work but i didn't and i didnt call because i just wanted to sleep and the thought of doing anything else seemed overwhelming at the time ..soo now im going to get in trouble but i don't think they'll fire me. Last time I was at work I was in a great mood until Jeremy started telling me about how travis was telling him how fat i was or am and all this crap about me being depressed. it's not that i care about what travis has to say it's that he felt the need to talk about me behind my back to jeremy who is always harrassing me at work any ways. It just caught me off gaurd and i really really hate working with jeremy. ....that's it thus far this fall Current Mood:  bored |
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